Friday, June 13, 2008

A Matter of CHOICE ..

Do we actually have a choice? Is Choice a real concept or just the fabrication of one’s imagination? These are a couple of questions from the realm of pseudo science that physics very recently attempted to answer. Though the question might sound trivial but the quest for its answer led two of physics greatest theories namely Relativity and Quantum Mechanics lock horns against one another.

Let me cut down on the technical jargon and get to a more Lehman’s point of view. Suppose I give you two fruits. One Apple and One Orange and ask you to choose one of them. The question is not what you would choose here but rather of the existence of a choice. Do you in-fact have a choice? Common sense says that Of course you do have a choice and that’s how you choose. But this conclusion of your common sense would go against the greatest intellect to ever walk the world Sir Albert Einstien. According to him “God doesn’t play dice with the universe”. This means that every thing is governed by quantifiable laws and work according in accordance with it. If this were to be true then it would be theoretically possible to determine the outcome of your choice with accuracy and precision. So if one could already know what he is going to choose, then where is the choice?

Be that as it may, the argument of lack of choice also has its own set of opposition. This time it’s a group of scientist who came up with the theory of quantum mechanics. Well lets say the battle is between Einstien and Hawkins(yes Stephen Hawkins). Quantum mechanics introduces the concept of probability into the laws of physics. Hence now we have a situation that we have the probability of you choosing the apple and the probability of you choosing the orange but the actual choice still remains uncertain. This means you do have choice to make after all.

The logic behind Einstien’s argument is easy to understand but the conclusions that come out of it are quite contrary to our common sense, whereas the logic behind Hawkin’s argument is hard to understand but its conclusions agree with common sense.

Ironically now its matter or your choice to decide which of the two is to be accepted. Both the theories and their creators have withstood the test of time and criticism and both happen to be true. A paradox we might say.

In either case knowledge of existence (not necessarily the actual act) of choice is of prime importance. It has been proved that you can make a man choose what you want him to choose if he is aware of the choice only in his subconscious. For example you had the choice to either read this article or avoid it and I can now predict what you chose because you where aware of that choice only in your subconscious. So now do you think you could have done differently if you knew about this choice……I don’t think so……

In any case….Its just a matter of CHOICE….!!! Don’t u think….

LOVE.... can be quite a resignation

The end sometimes is necessary to bring in new beginings, and thus i am heading to the end of a two and a half year old affair. I did not believe in love at first sight, but believe you me that was what i felt when i first laid my eyes on her.She was beauty personified.I thought i would never see her again but fate had decided otherwise and exactly a year a later we met again.

I still remember the night when we confessed the love for one another. I felt as if the earth has moved from beneath my feet. I was floating.....yes i still do remember the night...it was dark, it was cold and it was raining.I was there with my friends (many of you infact) and the reason we were there was for her. That day was the begening of an affair that lasted a full three and a half years and ....those were the days my friend i thought they would never end.

It used to be letters.....that is how we started our communication. Distance was never a problem for me but the letters were not very frequent. Slowly we entered the world of chatting...and every thing changed....It was the fateful day of November 14 2005 that i had the chance to be one with her finally......

That day i had glitter in my eyes, aspiration in my heart ....and that was the most exciting day of my life till date.....the unision was not as i had expected....but that is what pleople say about love...its never as you expect it to be.....it took us a lot of time and equal lot of effort to get used to each other.....but with time things got better.....we got to go places together....there were days we used to be with one another for almost 24 hrs...though sometimes it seemed like only a sec....
She was an Indian, and is still, and i am quite sure would be for the rest of her life. My parents were proud of me....my friends were proud of me....my whole colony was proud of me for finding her....she was one in a million....yes she really was...!!!

Trouble started brewing in paradise in the March of 2006....we had been together in Hydrabad and now we had moved to Pune....though she was there a couple of years before me too....She introduced me to a friend of hers....the friend was an american.....she was young ....beautiful and charismatic.....initially i had a hard time adjusting with the friend...manly due to the lack of indianess in her....but something in me got acttracted to her like gravity.....firstly she was an american and secondly she was wild.....she was really really wild.....

Couple of months went by without much of a tusle but finally due to work related requiremnt i had to move out from her house and move in with her friend(the american;-)). We started seeing less of each other and the communication started going down.....i spent more and more time with the american.....there were times we neva bothered going home either....life with american was a totally new experience...she was naughty and unpedictable....but it only made the attraction stronger.....i still tried to keep in touch with my Indian better half but she refuted and made any of my efforts towards her futile....

That the American also was attracted to me was a thought i would never have dared to fanthom....but as funny as it may seem she happen to have developed a liking towards me.....there happened a huge fight between the two(my indian better half and her american friend)...and the reason was ofcourse me.....quite to my surprise...the indian won the fight...i was relieved....but then her attitude towards me changed.....both of us knew we were drifting and going down the drain.....and my attraction towards the american was gaining momentum as was hers(which i came to know later)...

So i finally decided to end my relationship which had made my life a rollercoster ride for the past couple of years.....i told this to my parents....initially they were apprehensive....but later they agreed to it..... And so i have finally decide to end my affair.....this is to say that i have resigned from my previous company(she does not like her name being published)...!!!!